was my loved?

This is my heart. I love you to be in it, but it would be nice if you get off. If you call my name, I will try to ignore it. Even though I know you might love someone, I still show you affection, even though you don't talk to me, Im still here to listen. But if you start to fell for someone, then my heart falls into pieces.

So, why?, WHY can it be me?

I try to follow everything you want. I even push myself to make you smile. And I am even planning to sing a song just for you.

so why?, Why cant you like me?

-->the song that i saved for you goes along on top of these words, its a message that I could never say to you!

"I love you, these words are the greatest for someone like you. When you close your eyes, you will feel this emotion and slowly gives you warmth. Words that ME can give you, because it makes me happy all day, and it makes my heart pounds the whole day. I LOVE...., i love you!"

PS: she is not in my heart anymore, but shes a memorable figure that I need to treasure <3

OSAP OSAP OSAP!

So...my day today was not that great. I slept at like 3 am becuz of facebook and phoning my friends. What can I do right? I am just a kid living my life to the fullest during break. --> But this backfired! - I need to wake up at 8am because I need to go to my campus, which is miles away.

...the bad thing is....! my dad wont drive me

~because of that, i need to take the bus, which took me 3 hours of just sitting and smelling other people's BO!, like dude there are items called deoderants, geezzz it is not that hard!.....so I went through that long journey of miserable sadness and just listening to my ipod...

After all that, I got into the subway station, which kinda pissed me off! - the ttc pass price went up! (im poor, not that rich) - well that is not that much of a crisis, so i did not stress about it....

...then I went down at this station called warden, and i rode a bus i didnt even know if its the right one! (i know im dumb, im kinda called that alot). Anyways, i passed the stop cuz i thought the bus was going to the campus, which it didnt....(another piss off)

Lets JUMP now!!! (campus time)

so i arrive to the school YEY!!!, so when i went there...i saw my friend SHAMPRETEE...so we said "hi" to each other..but the line is so fucking long...so she left me alone.! so i got really sad again, cuz i have no one to talk toooooo!

BUT!!! dun dun dun...dont worry guys, that's why we have cellphones

So, during my waiting, i kinda texted 7 people at a time, which killed the waiting time that i need to waste. So....the time went by really fast and i got into one of the OSAP people, and they are like.."you can not register, because there are no courses below your name" - in my heart, mind, and soul "I AM LIKE WTF, FUCK U BITCH", but i didnt...cuz im a good boy =P...so the girl is like "go upstairs and register yourself".

As i said earlier i am dumb,

I went upstairs not knowing what to do...so i went to mycentennial, and i can not accesss anything!!...so the panick that is overcoming my body took over!...so i keep pressing buttons and stuff, and thank the LORD- the page that says "YOUR REGISTERED CAME UP", i am so happy but at the same time dumbfounded....LOL moments!!! - as a result, i got my osap.!!!

PS: one of my worst day ever- "waited for friggin 2 hours, and got rejected, and passed my bus stop, and so much more, others that no words can explain" - that is life guys!! as a college boy, all i can do is suck this up!! -(LUCKILY I GOT HOME SAFE - No badluck came up ^_^)

sleeping

OMG!...so that is how I start it. During my life in college, I experienced tons of sleep deprivations. For example, no sleep during exams, or even just a normal day. May you ask why that happens? - well it is because my mind is set into this kind of patterns that I cannot go back!, so I kind of just left it because I have no ability to change such inevitable things.

...christmas break comes and gone

During christmas and new years, I felt so relief, because I thought that i will have enough sleep!, but guess what guys?!? - I did not...I think it becomes worst. The fact that I always go to parties and stuff!!, like I would really want to just lie on my bed doing nothing. But the road of parties seems to have an ugly face for me!! - and so again the word "SUCK IT UP" slap me in the face again!!!

--> and now that a new semester will about to begin..!! I really wish that the sleep fairies will come at my side and makes me rest my mind, body, and soul!

HAPPY NEW YEARS AND CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ~ sleep tight!

the day before the beginning

...dot dot dot, that is all i can say, the thing on my mind right now is very unexplainable. Don't you feel that way too??? if your new, fresh, and lost. Well that is how i feel, very very weirdly......dot dot dot, gosh!!! is this even real i can't even make a proper blog about my thoughts of going to college. Am I that dumb, I guess my mind is not set on it??? I wish it will all slow down and make me breathe. Then, may the wind blows my mind and set it on the right track for a new beginning for me =D